Don't say that, Miss Manette, for you would
have reclaimed me, if anything could. You will not be the cause of my becoming
worse.'
`Since the state of your mind that you
describe, is, at all events, attributable to some influence of mine--this is
what I mean, if I can make it plain--can I use no influence to serve you? Have
I no power for good, with you, at all?'
`The utmost good that I am capable of now,
Miss Manette, I have come here to realise. Let me carry through the rest of my
misdirected life, the remembrance that I opened my heart to you, last of all
the world; and that there was something left in me at this time which you could
deplore and pity.'
`Which I entreated you to believe, again
and again, most fervently, with all my heart, was capable of better things, Mr.
Carton!'
`Entreat me to believe it no more, Miss
Manette. I have proved myself, and I know better. I distress you; I draw fast
to an end. Will you let me believe, when I recall this day, that the last
confidence of my life was reposed in your pure and innocent breast, and that it
lies there alone, and will be shared by no one?'
`If that will be a consolation to you,
yes.'
`Not even by the dearest one ever to be
known to you?'
`Mr. Carton,' she answered, after an
agitated pause, `the secret is yours, not mine; and I promise to respect it.'
`Thank you. And again, God bless you.'
He put her hand to his lips, and moved
towards the door. `Be under no apprehension, Miss Manette, of my ever resuming
this conversation by so much as a passing word. I will never refer to it again.
If I were dead, that could not be surer than it is henceforth. In the hour of
my death, I shall hold sacred the one good remembrance--and shall thank and
bless you for it--that my last avowal of myself was made to you, and that my
name, and faults, and miseries were gently carried in your heart. May it
otherwise be light and happy!'
He was so unlike what
he had ever shown himself to be, and it was so sad to think how much he had
thrown away, and how much he every day kept down and perverted, that Lucie
Manette wept mournfully for him as he stood looking back at her.
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